My smile is so contagious. I hope it rubs off!
I get nervous with the thought of loving again. I’m nervous of course because I ask myself:
What am I supposed to do after saying I love you?
Is this supposed to be acted on quickly?
Am I going to get the same results?
This is a journey I prayed for repeatedly; well of course, if you ask you better be ready to receive. I embarked on regaining with patience and understanding. Love is not an emotion, love is a decision, a promise and in its own category – and commitment if you want to be technical.
Sometimes doubt kicks in I sometimes worry about the possibility of failure from the past that has loving myself and loving my significant other like a tug of war, but I know whatever comes next, I am sure that I can handle …be it communication, new milestones, new adventures or even better taking those vows. Getting out of my comfort zone and head IS A MUST. Most of all I must admit I am nervous about losing it after all this hard work pouring into my love cup; it’s full again.
In this little two-month social media hiatus handling my mental approach, expression and not being on the fence about an opportunity or chance at showing affection has shocked me. It has been an incredible feeling- I'm blushing, I'm cheesing! I came back to writing everything down, realizing change is for the better, and sharing practice of listening rather than speaking, time handling – can’t put a rush on what you want to last, this is no race – while you read this you may want to take notes. I came to quickly realize how amazing time alone, focus with minimum distraction and consistency can bring fruitful healthy beginnings. It muster up thinking of what you can do to consume your time when you have nothing to scroll. I can use that time spending time, planning trips, Netflix and chill, cuddled reading a book, cute outings and thoughtful gifts – make someone feel how I want to feel.
You make time for who you are and with that comes the type of fear everyone suffers from. What is next and what do I do when I found the love that I once lost?
Every ounce of love that I have regained right now, is confirmation that I have earned but would not have without drilling consistency inside my head and looking at the vision ahead. I took this dive to do something that I genuinely wanted for myself, and although curve balls are thrown my way, I have a positive response: I continue to keep fighting.
NEVER TELL YOURSELF THAT YOU might not be good enough and that YOU do not deserve to have the love YOU desire. I would rather choose to be persistent and enjoy what I have wanted for so long. To finally have a decision, act on it and stay consistent while giving – good job Rabbit.
This post is for me as well as my readers... to remind myself to keep this big bright smile; to remind myself of why I began this journey to regain love. I don’t have to be jealous, insecure, resentful or take revenge from what has happened. I’m moving forward. My anxiety kicks in from time to time; I am far from what I am familiar with and brand new to this, and sometimes that can be scary... but the terrifying thing in life is giving up when you honestly have a chance to fight through ...I will not give up and remind myself consistency will get you everything.
Revisit + Some Gems
I wasn’t worried about giving yawl a blog when I was in NYC for my 30th. THE BEST birthday. Of course I was capturing the moments (took hell of pictures, shopping, finding restaurants, etc) but it was really BRIGHT LIGHTS CITY LIGHTS, a city that barely sleeps and I was really on clouds. My AirBnB was pretty lit, especially the pop up surprises …this was a trip where I would have really stayed and made my home. I think I needed to see exactly what I wanted to do to set the tone and lead the charge to getting just that
“Your soul and smile is all that’s needed to light up the room”
While planning this trip I was really bent over wanting everyone to come, really scared to know what was next, what to expect and realizing I’m getting older and beating myself up for what I know I could have achieved and didn’t prioritize. I wasn’t really valuing myself in these thoughts (more so in my head too much), I was willing to accommodate everyone I wanted to be there just to share moments with me. Waste of time. Waste of money. Words of advice: Whoever comes comes. No over extension needed. No pressure
To wake up and have a breath of fresh air, thoughts and hear the city outside just fed my passion no matter where I went or what I was trying to decide to do
Shoutout and great job to my parents who had me in the middle of the year. Pretty much the dopest – marks 6 more months of the year: June. Many people are setting goals for the last 6 months, updating there vision boards and reflecting in general
I truly thrived + survived in my twenties (discovered +unpacked).
I feel my 30s I will pack lighter + stay afloat and I will live up to my names meaning
Rebekah - In Hebrew the meaning of the name is: Captivating (capable of attracting and holding interest; charming); knotted cord (primitive surveyor's tool for measuring).
What matters most to me is that will never change; I am going to create opportunities for myself to help lead me on my path to my purpose and success.
tips + advice for a lady entering thirties.
Forget about the stigmas that we are told from your younger you now to this day and age. I am here for therapy. The month of November I went weekly. Therapy really has me in a position where I cannot be consumed by the past, leave the bullshit where it is at and I can breathe. My heart truly has space. With therapy I have realized so much about myself and I have governed myself in so many positive ways. I have healed because of me and have not required anyone else to
“Financial Stability” Start saving your bucks.
I’m still trying to master the art of saving. I see, I swipe and then I check my bank account which tells me “YOU BROKE”. In all honesty open that savings, doesn’t matter if you have change or even a few dollars, keep feeding that savings. You struggle because you place yourself in that position. Financial stability means everything when you are raising a family, when you want to go places, when you want to own and also when you want to build your brand.
Hold your friends closer.
I used to think everyone was my friend. Nope! I literally invest in who invests in me, I can count on my hand who holds the friend
Plan + Organize
Consistently work on planning and staying organized. It really eases my mind and it makes the day, week, month go smooth.
Unplug + Recharge
This has to be the most important yet strong decision that I could have made. As a blogger I need a damn break sometimes. My thoughts are overflowing and I sometimes catch a headache from being in front of the screen. We all need time to allow ourselves to unplug and recharge. To keep you guys coming back for meaningful post and inspiration shoot I need some time to ME. Put yourself first and choose you. However many times you need to unplug and recharge, please do so. I love to put my phone on DND, watch movies, just lay in silence and hangout if I feel like it
I’ve have picked up the habit of drowning myself in reading again. No lie when reading I think so much outside the book and create some of my blog and podcast content. I believe if you want to become a better writer, YOU WILL READ. There’s endless learning when you pick up a book, don’t forget your sticky notes and a crisp yellow highlighter. When I read I need my space to be clear, no noise and fresh notebook, and ballpoint pen
Chance for ONE winner to receive new copies of ….
1. Becoming x Michelle Obama
2. We’re going to Need More Wine x Gabrielle Union
3. Milk and Honey x Rupi Kaur
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Giveaway ends December 21,2018 @11:59PM EST
Women Empowerment is trending; trending like crazy in fact. Between 1997 and 2017, the number of women-owned businesses increased by 114 percent, a rate 2.5 times higher than the national average (www.startupnation.com). Let’s keep this going; but question how do we keep this going? Are we really empowering? Don’t you think those pictures we see of women photoshoots- from different walks together had conversation amongst one another? Let their guards down and share secrets on how to kill the game? I’m just wondering because in my everyday scroll on social media or per conversation, from what I see in my community “women empowerment” is not happening.
I AM Rebekah Denise motto is inspire, empower, and motivate. I want to encourage and lift other women; really leave them with gems that have taking me to places I never thought I would be, leave those empowered knowing I am here to help as much as I can and knowing they can soak the knowledge I have provided at no cost. Gon head girl give up where you bought those shoes from, let her know what equipment you used to launch that podcast, give and help her the site to build a website or app, provide her with resources that helped you turn your dream to reality. So I did take a step back from spending money on attending events (does not mean by other means I do not support); marches, conferences, and brunches (I have to say mimosas have become my thing) but I asked myself what’s next? What is my biggest take away from this here event? Did I walk away and feel my money spent gave me opportunity and just not words of empowerment but truly the feeling to building up other women?
*When I bring women together, we will walk away with fundamentals how to tackle our real life situations (yea girl I know make the money don’t let it make you-WE GON GET IT).
I’ve attended women empowerment events and have felt the speaker’s stories but after that I’ve had my questions. I’ve exchanged business cards, held lengthy conversation thinking that I’ll be offered opportunities, or even have the chance to network “shadow” ladies to give me the courage to take the next step to build, invest and literally be on my high to getting to it. When I followed up, I got no response – No answer after leaving a message (I know they got it). I enjoy seeing the venues luxurious from top to bottom but I would enjoy the feeling of the bond of sisterhood- carrying one another on each own journey, being there through the ups and down, forming accountability groups, etc.
Do you know what you feel like? Do you know you by yourself? Have you experienced your most peaceful self?
You’re thinking of the countdown to screaming around your loved ones and starting fresh. How about I’ve already got a head start. My advice to you: start now! I’ve focused on letting go and seeking more happiness and push toward the creative world that awaits me.
Let my work speak for itself, I still look forward to the late nights when the world is sleeping and my creative juices are flowing. I still will get my adequate sleep but let every idea be written down no matter what time it is that the thought comes to mind. When I’m out of tune with myself I’ll go back to my corner of the boxing ring and reenergize so that I can bounce back to the middle and “Level Up”. I understand my boxing ring will throw me test, I have to be prepared and ready. The “mirror” is a phenomenal teacher; look at yourself. In my corner of the ring:
Is it worth it?
Positive “beautiful” mindset
You’ll get me effortlessly- my truest authentic self
I will make room for my dreams + expressing gratitude. That’s my choice!
Waking up I want to be filled with butterflies in my stomach and have as much energy to decide what I will and will not accept. I’ll see things for what it is. I have to really reference back what’s being projected. I will be center and clear of all energies that don’t serve my purpose or quench my thirst to become a better me. I’ll be ready to tune into and interact with like energies.
2019, I am already into you. December, I’m planting my seed regardless of the snow that’ll cover. As I am a known fighter, my seed will grow and the flower will push through and blossom. I will pursue my passions and keep pushing past doubt. I want to get moving on my path to success- my reward will be feeding my mind, body and spirit with positivity with no limits .
I want to live in my truth.
I wrote this letter to be seen so that you can write your 2019, start now and hold yourself accountable but just know you are not alone and I am to on this journey to living in my passion.
I wasn’t quite so feeling Thanksgiving; immediate family was away and I was in an uncomfortable position getting a text saying come over for dinner last minute. A salty bone was in my body because this was the first year the “tradition” is not going as planned. I’m not here for the whole fake smiling at family members who you haven’t seen all year. Asking questions, funny faces, and having to get petty because one crossed the line. There I said; what most won’t come to admit. So, in this matter to get yourself in the Holiday spirit for one please draw a line through the houses you won’t be stopping at HA!
As for Christmas boom boom boom I’m so ready because I explain the true meaning to my children and then we celebrate. And back into tradition- this year I believe my aunt and I have convinced Papa Bear to do seafood Christmas, just need to decide attire requirements. But not to add my children are so humble, grateful their list I can work with and cheers to seeing my almond milk and cookies on the dining room table.
Let’s me let you guys know how I hopped into getting ready for Christmas and in Holiday Spirit …..
I’m feeling the Weather alone – snow and cold. Snow is so beautiful for me and I know my neighborhood will be lit up with Christmas lights and it’s time to drive around and take pictures. Cold weather means bundling up, cute hat and gloves to match and nothing but warm drinks. To me warm means “soothing”. More frequent bubble baths, candles lit and dressing super comfortable with no explanation.
Music is my fave, so I replaced some Christmas music with my everyday tunes that I rock out to. Those tunes been getting me into the mood to go out: dress up (don’t forget that fashionable jacket), go to dinner with your girlfriends, go ice-skating, or take part in secret santa. I’m so looking forward to tree shopping and decorating the tree. The weather permits us to bake as well. Blast ya music in the kitchen, getting dressed, everywhere you go -the playlist I’ll provide in another blog. It’ll have you bopping and doing ya dance while vibin’, you get the idea. Music Music Music puts you in positive vibes and higher energy!
Holiday season everyone has that “going broke” to get everyone everything they have expressed they wanted. I do things much different, how about Window Shopping (leave ya wallet at home). To get in holiday spirit you don’t need to spend all your money. Actually, kill two birds in one stone. While out window shopping, you can budget shop for those of ya loved ones who can’t handle the stores around this time or tired of going to the stores. Pay close attention to ads and cut you out some coupons and also subscribe to emails to get up to additional 30-50% off selective items around this time of the year. The stores will have so many festive decorations, groups of people be outside singing and many of the store employees are in the spirit- happy and jolly.
Besides meeting with long-lost friends (college, out of town, etc), Family time is super important. Spending Christmas eve, Christmas, New Years, etc. is a MUST- won’t be any traveling and I’ll be sure to send a group text letting them know. I can’t wait until we gather so I can take lots of pictures, we can laugh and embrace the time and love spent. Look through past holidays photos with family (think of the memories) and think ahead about the time that you’re going to have. That should set the tone …
So…what do you do to get in the holiday spirit?
You guys probably have heard of VlogMas where traditionally YouTubers film their life from the 1stto the big day (25th). For me, I’m a lifestyle blogger and BlogMas is supposed to be Christmas focused- many write for first 12 days, 25 days or even the full 31 days; to me means that I will blog majority of the 31 days and I'm up for this challenge. I won’t be fully focused on Christmas- my creative mind wonders and I get to writing off topic. I’m up for the discipline (I could use it and hold myself to writing consistently).
Between motherhood, podcasting, working my 9-5, practicing healthy living I’d say life is pretty interesting and I’m pretty transparent so my hopes are high to drop a blog for you guys to read. My website is named after me on purpose - my purpose in choosing my own name gives me the freedom to post about whatever I feel. I will try my best to make some post holiday/winter related, continued post about everyday life and end of year preparation. Speaking of which I need to get my photography together because there’s nothing like a good photo or scheduling a dope photoshoot.
WELCOME to my BlogMas – I can’t believe it’s DECEMBER already! I’m preparing my wishlist and looking forward to seeing what I will have to purchase on my own. This year went by incredibly fast — I’m not shocked at all. Do any of you feel this way too?? Every year goes by fast.
Rabbits Christmas Wishlist:
Black Bomber Jacket
Fitted (XS): Warmth and quality right.
It’s about that time I get more sweats and loungewear around the house. Being comfty pushes my productivity – don’t really wanna lounge in a regular outfit
Decorative Fur Throw Pillows
I am fascinated with adding pillows to my couches and bed. The throw pillows add flavor to the room. No worries I ask my guest not to lounge on them, they are for decorative purposes- ha!
The Weekly Prayer Journal
When I was in Target, I came across this journal which will help me pray, and reflect. Perfect timing to see this gem. It’ll inspire me use my separate journal to
get into bullet journaling: to track my life, my schedule, my to-do lists, and itinerary for traveling. Writing is me and it’ll contribute to my daily journaling— it feels amazing! One of my goals is to start and finish a journal 2019 with actual journal and blog entries!
Apple Watch Series 3 Rose Gold & iPhone XS Max
I would love to add to my Apple Products. I won’t have to have my phone handy all the time. I would love for a bigger gigabyte (for pictures and apps you know)!
Instead of pinning photos and gluing my vision – I want to use my bulletin board as a “vibe” board,that'll show where I am and my mood. I’ll hang photos and move my ideas around when need be. Life happens and I don’t want to beat myself up with unrealistic deadlines.
1. Get out of your own head
2. Healing can occur when you acknowledge the pain
3. There are things you will question
Wrap It Up! Wrap It Up; thank you November.
You ever just notice a repeating cycle within yourself, with the people your surrounded by or just notice that no matter what communication or the vibe is just not right- you start questioning sometimes is it you? What are you doing wrong? Or why is this not working out?
It happens. In many life lessons, maybe all life lessons you govern YOURSELF
Chillleeeeee November stripped me naked: I fought through pain and moved into “Healing”
Every emotion that I let flow had me crying, smiling, overthinking, sleeping too much, boost of productivity and questioning whether it is for me or whether I should look at that particular person, situation or the environment I was in. My depression and anxiety kicked in and was face to face with me at times I least expected. I danced every day in my space battling from how I would take on the day and get through the best I can.
For so long I tried to dismiss my emotions and top them with what I felt I needed in the moment, phase or time of life and it continued to cut myself deeper. I lost complete touch of myself. Looking at the negativity of traumatic events in life I was sinking. I was vulnerable to what another said, making decisions based off others and although I know I am very sensitive- my sensitivity radar flashed -went through the roof of me seeing clearly the actions of others, the treatment towards me and not valuing what’s most important to me
It’s never easy to let go immediately- it took me some morning rides to work, texts unread, unanswered phone calls and complete silence when I stood in front of the mirror to say I need to heal before even engaging and rushing the process; the balance was hard to find but I merely felt that I needed to stay afloat and not prolong wrapping it up (whatever it might be) so that it would no longer hold me down.
So far from Letting Go + Healing I’ve learned:
Vent to your journal
Go to bed to ease your mind
Be quiet, observe and listen
Don’t take it personal
Stop the behavior
Honor their position, nothing more nothing less
Celebrate life and rejoice in lessons and jewels dropped
Pray more for understanding w/o physical interference
See it for what it is and not for what I want it to be
Being honest, open, holding myself accountable & being truthful about my experiences & feelings helped move into “healing”. Slowing I began to embrace, I was eager to get to the root of not being me, and being true to myself and asking myself tough questions that no one else was willing to ask me. I had to accept the tough decisions and the steps to take after. It hurt but it helped my heart become softer and beat to my rhythm and allowed my mind to be at ease and my energy to be at my pace but more so helped me see that me rooting for myself this November; I got a different taste and different outlook on how positive things could be once I let go of things that would and have keep me down.
Letting go + Healing the response is different, mentally, emotionally, your thanking yourself for getting to this place. Speak more life into yourself and know that you are unapologetic for stepping into your focus and destiny. It’s freaking amazing to see the pain turn into beauty and the art of truly discovering the cloth to cover your nakedness.
A day at a time my hoppers …..
The way I am smiling on the inside never thought that I’d feel like everything is going to be alright. Shoutout to this weekend the meet up and reuniting with my Godfather #HennyThingIsPossible and shoutout to my brother for introducing the family to #Poutine.
Yesterday I did absolutely nothing. I let the laundry overflow, I let my children run wild and I laid in the bed beige watching “Being Mary Jane” what an amazing feeling. I inspired myself as my mind doesn’t stop going to be short and sweet with you guys because I am going to feel better is my new thing :
1. Completely undress yourself . You feel much better + free.No seriously get naked. Some days may not go as planned but get this – you make the next day greater. Friday night I cried my eyes out, Saturday morning I was ready to blossom with my gigantic smile. Grab some wine, water, take a nap if needed but don’t beat yourself up about anything. Keep nourishing yourself. Be okay with not being okay. Episode 16 of Rabbits Whole Podcast I said “We are not perfect and we will suffer believing that we are”. We’re aiming to live our best lives. Take deep breaths baby
2. Pray + Let Go I tell myself I believe that God will make a way out of no way, but am I allowing him to lead? Am I just praying and still thinking I can lead? Sometimes I do because it’s not on my time that things are getting done fast enough. Easier said than done but I am really focusing on praying and leaving it to God. Overthinking and stressing are not good mentally, physically or emotionally. If you don’t let go you’ll be stuck and we all want to move forward. Letting go means that you are going to be able to allow your heart to carry less burden, allowing my mind to rest easier & you my love are going to be able to put your energy into LEVELING UP.
3. Every day becomes as GREAT as you create it to be. I’ve been working my ass off (oops language)! – I’ve been rooting for me through the decisions I've made and practicing learning myself more ….I decided to begin with my sticky notes and placing them on my headboard and wall in my room. Instead of just reading, I am believing in what I wrote and living it. I am creating my own opportunities, putting in hours of effort, claiming my goals and standing firm on “what is for me will be for me”
Feel better. Release when you are ready! Take ownership my fellow hoppers xoxoxo ...
One time for November .....
I wake up in the middle of night more often from a dream while my household and the world is sound asleep, with my eyes filled with tears, my heart pounding and I try to figure out what the dream means... I put my morning routine on hold for a bit as I feel myself out and get more comfortable with therapy weekly. When I lay back down my mind is on go, hard to go back to sleep but one thing I am consistently doing is creating from my thoughts and that dream,
Dream and create ....
Dream and create ....
Dream and create.....
Until it’s time to wake my little ones up
From Rabbit to MacKayla & Nana: Here, I want to go about my day being as strong as I can be and not showing the hurt and pain; I don’t want to be deemed as being weak. But with the trauma holds me until I’ve had enough and I’m ready to explode. I let out every emotion and it felt so good. I sleep a peaceful sleep that made me feel like I WAS COMING BACK TO ME AGAIN. After emptying myself; I somehow can express myself through my creativity - writing, through planning an event, through a podcast episode. I’ve accepted that moving forward might mean leaving someone behind. And moving forward may mean to accept that some things will not change, accept I will not hear an apology. Grab my hand …c’mon nana let’s go (I miss that physical part but your my angel fly while I walk)!
I want to express my cup being full of gratefulness, gratitude, and being blessed that the time and space that we were allowed still plays a significant role in my success, determination and allow me to put my own formula together with the ingredients of my passions which turns them into my reality.
I know the feeling of my heart beating rapidly, not being able to focus, my palms sweaty, but I tell myself I can calm down. I give myself time to walk away or open talks at therapy. And when it’s over I have beautiful memories that I can look back on, ideas and pieces that I can craft together. I use what you gave me as my weapons to ease my mind. But sometimes am I wrong because I just don’t know what to do or how to piece them together?
Our Catchup Session M'Kayyy & Nana: Motherhood has been one journey that I remain humble and embrace. They have grown to everything I expected and more. I had my scares where I thought would they meet you guys and be great up there. Nu has your attitude Nana as if we needed her to add to mine. Carly has your facial structure M'Kayyy. Wheeeww chile! The store visits you used to take me on nana, I take them on. Spending time ; I make sure I fully invest, listen and process. I nudge and I push, building foundation as you built for me. I'm learning and applying your teachings. I'm a natural at being a creator, those notebooks and books come in handy. I'll be finish soon but I created my own crescent. I want nothing but to be healthy, I reached back into childhood, I found a dope therapist. The laundry is being folded, some items ironed and well I threw some out, and put the extra cycle on when washing some. The relationship with God. I am truly doing me. Scared in some areas but I'd rather make mistakes for them to be my blueprint. Thank you my loves, rest
Mackayla Aaliyah & Nana you helped me face my fears and what should have been in place I put in place. I will break generational curses and I will no longer play as a sponge.
Dear Depression and Anxiety, I want to live.
I’m already a step ahead of the therapist with breaking down what seems to cloud my mind at times. I want to make sure you don’t make your way to the front of my mind. With living in my truth I also walk in my purpose. I treat myself to a large Starbucks Vanilla Bean Crème Frappuccino- treat of accomplishment. That rich sweet taste tastes so good knowing I checked off what I needed to do in my planner or I dropped another episode for my Rabbits Whole listeners, or I dived in more pages of the book that I’m focused on highlighting and taking away my key points. Or how about I even stayed up past the time I normally pass out. With my strength and the fight within me I am determined to live past the doubt and fears.
If your values are shallow, your victories will be empty – Steven Furtick
Dear Depression and Anxiety.
When I hit my peak I tell myself “I am not loved, I can’t even love myself hard enough”. You’ve always had a funny way of telling me about me. I’ve tried to ignore you but you somehow found a way to make your presence. Right here, no more asking “why me?” our relationship ends. My ability to heal is on ME. I’m going to be Rabbit where my eyes have a sparkle and glistens, my smile is as bright as I am, and my heart overflows with love, passion and confidence that I’m moving down my path of success.
By the end of each day I can say “you won’t rob me of my strength”
I wrote this letter to you because I want you to know that my focus on my dreams will overcome the doubt and fear.
I wrote this letter to you, to hold myself accountable because I’m not alone in this journey. I am growing and understanding myself and see the clarity I once didn’t seek.
Let’s keep it real..this week was a tough one but I MADE IT
Happy Friday, looking forward to this weekend as it’s been a long week for me. Maybe it’s this cold that hasn’t cleared all the way and now I’m back to being stuffy. Or maybe it’s because I’ve had appointments, and been pressing myself to really get these blogs checked off my To-Do List.
Congratulations, I’ve been on a roll creating content for y’all and even getting ready for BlogMas. I want recognize my achievements and pat myself on the back. It can be done, don’t doubt yourself J
I really just want to reflect and give y’all some of my takeaways that been warming me up inside.
**Disclaimer: Just because I dropped a blog today doesn’t mean I’m not going to drop for Mental Me Mon’Daze
Coping Mechanism: Squeeze that Lemon & Wear Yellow
I think of lemons being fresh and bright. My grandmother loved the color yellow; reason why I set MacKayla color theme as yellow as well. With them being gone I realized I was dwelling on the physical not being here. But not looking at the gems they dropped at what’s been pushing me today. Had I been successful with my suicide attempt after losing MacKayla I’d been cutting discovering my happiness, clarity and joy short.
I’ve experienced the bitterness of the lemon (that sour taste that makes ya face tense). I thought I’d never ever experience motherhood, I thought I’d never be surrounded by an amazing sisterhood or find my soulmate. Today I’m squeezing that lemon (making lemonade y’all) to embrace and overpower that dark road I’ve once traveled. Many want to hide the dark roads, dark truths; therapy weekly has been one hell of a non-prescribed drug that’s helped me shed light on each and every one of them. And I have to say this past weeks therapy session confirmed it’s very important to do things for you and realizing it’s the small things that can change our lives in major ways. Like my boyfriend shared with me “some people show you exactly who they are, it’s up to you if you are going to continue to let them affect you or handle them accordingly”. This month I promised myself to forgive more, be more of a listener and self-observant.
There are going to be those days that I simply want to vent, share my stories, curl up with my favorite yellow & gray blanket is to remind of fresh of life as I am still growing and learning, remembrance of my two M&M angels.
We have to train ourselves to be open and accepting of our love and clarity no matter what it once was, what it is now?
If you catch me in Yellow I’m bringing you all the positivity and sunshine lovebugs
Tomorrow is a NEW day, promise you’ll be okay
Crying my eyes out has been a relief to knowing that I will soon feel better. Don’t you dare give up or hold in your tears. You know how you were a child and ya mom sad “Hush before I give you something to cry about” In fact they already did but guess what you’re grown now. Let that out and let it flow. Sometimes you have to be okay with not being okay. We are HUMAN. You’re entitled to having feelings, emotions, and just not feeling the day. But promise you yesterday and the next day will have no comparison. So I cried on a Monday bet on that Wednesday I was living my best life. Journal before bed each night and on Friday go back to Monday, am I right or am I right? Air it out and Let It Go love; you’ll get some good rest
Your mate should be your friend that you confide in
Are you really my friend? Or you just want to be my lover? That’s not going to work
Ladies sometimes inevitably we fall into love with the person that we have created in our mind. We (because I have been guilty in the past) look at potential or the idea without giving a chance for your man to be who he is.
To keep it sweet and simple I’d be lying if I told you that the love of my life and I have had the easiest journey, nah nope but I can say in the cheesiest way that I’d do it all over again, observe him and listen more. He’s brought out the yellow sparkle in me that is me being bold, fierce and not afraid to show for who I am. He often forced me to constantly check in on myself and notice how far I’ve come rather than going back and beating myself up. So friend, in fact he’s my bestfriend and everyday I get to know him more. SLOW DOWN sweetie, don’t rush. Y’all head out for a few dates, game night, be creative- support him how you want him to support you, drill one another & live in y’all moments. Enjoy his presence and do what feels right
-pillow talking does not involve gossip, let him know how you feeling, about your day, share your dreams and vice versa
Loving Yourself with some Naked
When you’ve undressed what are you really taking off?
Have you undressed your worries?
Did you look in the mirror and have to wash off the lip gloss, put ya wig back on its manikin head?
Loving yourself naked means you’ve accepted your flaws and flaunts. You’re still learning and mistakes are going to be made.
Loving yourself naked means blocking off alone time in your room to be completed naked lol admiring the body God made and the stretch marks that will only go further
Loving yourself means thinking POSITIVE THOUGHTS, you’re only as good as your last thought. The tongue is very powerful
Loving Naked means being your vulnerable self and unapologetic
Celebrate the moments and SLOW DOWN baby.
Wake up and be like "I got this and if I don't Imma go get it" I am the mother of three amazing little people that look up to me and sometimes mimic what I do. I started this blog wanting to inspire all to live in there story.
Rebekah Denise is a Rochester, NY native who in 2019 will graduate with her bachelors in Public Relations and Communication.
"I pray that through my blog I add inspiration to your journey and a push to your hustler mindset"
I Am Rebekah
The Life Out of Ordinary. Mother. Host. Creator of #BloggerConfession. Margarets Granddaughter.